Birthday blues

My lead was pushing me to go to Bangalore today. I told him, there is no reason for me to go and impress this little girl with whom I have been talking to. He doesn’t understand. We share such closeness on the mental plane which might be mistaken for a close relationship. I too was thinking in that direction until this relation with this girl opened my mind.

She is such a child at heart. I can only say that I feel like I am talking to my sister but a little more matured person internally. I told my lead that I am not talking to her to get into any relationship. I am talking to her because, it kind of stabilises my emotions when I am running high or low. I needed this because I was kind of getting desperate about alliances. This girl has brought sensibility to my thoughts.

I wonder why its always a girl who can make you think about things that you should know and that which your parents and siblings always say. I really wonder why men become like that??? I have got no answer being a guy!! Any answers anyone??

Morons

Its amazing how we encounter morons in our work. I really wonder if these people have the basic common sense required to function in the world properly. These people spoil everyone’s life to lead a useful life. Atleast, thats what they think about it.

I called this person yesterday and had a few words. Actually, since we both were excited not much was communicated. She is trying to take the responsibility of balancing my life. I dont normally like people doing this to me, but this girl has a way with me. I can never win an argument with her except when she is undecided about what to do.

Its the trust that she has sown in me that makes me appreciate her so much. I should never ever break it in life. Only God can help me do that. I am unnecessarily getting stressed out. Please God, help me get a workable solution to this issue and we would be well on our way to do this work in a good way. Still a long way to go in that.

I dont want to say much about this person because what I have learnt from my previous experience is that I tend to extrapolate these kind of relations and end up breaking the relation as such. I shouldnt do it this time. She has been a good person and I would like to be the same with her. Its amazing how life teaches you things in the hard way so that you never forget. I really wonder why this life and why we live here in such a mechanical way!!