“Phulo se pucha maine ke kahan gayi tumhari muskurahat,
Hawa se pucha maine ki kahan gayi tumhari mehek,
chand se pucha maine ki kahan gayi tumhari chandni,
sab ne kaha woh kisi k aane ki tayyari me masroof hai,
kisi k aane k liye hum sab itne khush hai ki khud ko hi bhul gaye hai!!!”
“chand ke saath jaise hamesha chandni rehti,
phulo ke saath jaise hamesha khushboo rehti hai,
is hawa ke saath vaise hi hamesha aapke liye meri care rehti hai”
Another:
“sitaro ki khubsurat si duniya me kisi ka intezaar hai,
chand ki chandni bhi kisi ka dedar ke liye betaab hai,
yeh thandi hawa bhi akeli tanhayi me madhosh si hai,
shayad sab aapke khawab ko sajane ke liye bechain hai”
Another one:
“Is pal me kuch khayalo ka sehlab ke aane ka ehsaas hua,
bahut khushi ke saath hi thode se gham ka ehsaas hua,
rab se unki khushi ki dua kar rahe hai,
dur hone ke saath hi kareeb rehne ki izazat mangte hai”
Coming back after a long time. Basically to put in all the wonderful sms that the sweet person has sent. Otherwise, I would end up deleting them from my mobile.
“Words cant express what I feel for you,
Its difficult for me to prove,
But I know my heart is true,
when I say I am lucky to have a friend like you!!”
“Apni dosti ke is fasaane ko hameshaa mehfooz rakhna,
in palo ko aise sajho ke rakhna ki jab bhi yaad aaye to saanse mehka jaaye,
aaj bhi dil ko sach ka ehsas tanha kar jaye,
par phir bhu rab se yeh guzarish hai ki yeh tanhayi bhi is raat ke andhere me kho jaye”
“har raat chandni raat nahi hoti,
har dost me aap jaisa baat nahi hoti,
lagta hai kuch acche hi karam kiye the humne,
nahi to aapki dosti mili na hoti”
“woh kho gaye kahi aaisa mehsus hua hai,
unhone humse unhe tanha chodne ka vaada liya hai,
dar to lagta hai ki yeh tanhayi unhe hum se dur na le jaye,
par lagta hai ki meri dosti aaisa hai ki unhe waha se vapis le aaye”
“apni dosti ek pyari kali hai jo sab se nazuk hoti hai par sab se pyari bhi,
phir socha ki yeh to woh khushboo hai jise
thamna chahe to hawa me kho jati hai par har pal saath bhi hai,
na jaane is manzil ka mukaam kya hai par
zindagi ka ehsaas raaste me bhi hai,
nahi saamne woh par
na jaane kyoun unke saath ka ehsaas bhi hai”
“Unke yaadon me dhub raha hun,
ye bhi na pata ki kahan ho raha hun ghum,
bas un meethe pal ki yaadon me din guzar rahe hai,
bhul gaya ki dil ki bhi hoti hai koi dhun”
These days just her thoughts are making me more and more despondent. I dont understand what my heart is telling me. My mind says that this is not good, but my heart doesn’t want to listen. At these times whose voice should I listen. I just dont know how to explain this feeling. I havent felt like this before.
Today the sweetest person I have known went to her hometown because her maternal grandpa had expired. The more saddening thing for me in this whole set of events was that she was supporting me through the pain she felt because of my silly emotions. I am such a sucker. I was caught in my own emotions when she needed me most. Oh God! Why did this happen?? And I had fun and slept and she was still awake. May be I could have shared a few consoling words with her. But, it was never to happen.
Actually, I am not moved by death. I didnt cry for my fathers death too. I dont know why. But I cant explain. May be I am such a stone hearted person. Dont know.
Never ever will I let such things happen again. Certain events happen so fast that we donot have control over it. I do not know how much pain she was under, for one of her sher that she wrote for me because I requested her told her emotions. I really felt bad.
The sher is -
“Zindagi ke rang bhi kitne ajeeb hai,
kabhi khushiyo se chamakta hua lal hota hai,
to kabhi ghum me jhulsa hua safed hai,
ghum ke is aalam me mann to bahut bechain hai,
par khud to sambhal kar hume jazbaato ke sehlab me unke liye ek kinara banna hai”
I didnt understand its contents in the first 2-3 readings. Only after sometime did I realise that the pain she had felt. Oh Ranjith! Ye tumne kya kar dala yaar….
And the entire day I wanted to say so many things to her but I knew she wasnt available. I had to keep my thoughts to myself. The first time I feel separation from someone reminds me of so much she means to me and my life.
“Unpe na jane itna yaken kyoun hai,
unka khayal bhi itna hasen kyoun hai,
har pal me unka saath ki kami kyoun hai,
suna hai pyar me sirf dard milta hai,
par woh dard bhi mitha kyoun hota hai”
I loved this one from her. She got inspired from a song. And took some of the words from there too. But her thoughts are very sweet.
“Aapki muskurahar phulo ko khila de,
ek jalak suraj ko chamka de,
aapki awaaz sunte hi koyal bhi gana chahe,
shayari ke lafzo ke jaadu se gulzar bhi fida ho jaaye”
This one she wrote after I sent her some of mine mixed with englsih words. I called it engsher. Mostly satirical and slightly flirty. I dont have mine with me. All of mine is with her. Yes, this is a pun but that is the truth too!!
“un haseen vadiyo me phir apna ek aashiya ho,
mehke phulo me sirf pyar ki khushbu ho,
chashmo ke pani me vapas woh mohabat ki mithas ho,
phir se sab log insaniyat ke pyar se mehak jaye,
aur har taraf sirf aman ka sam ho”
–
“Soch soch ke soch ko socho,
soch ko sochna bhi ek soch hai,
soch soch ke jo na soch paye meri
soch me woh bavakuf hai”
–
“As you go to bed tonight,
I asked the moon to keep you in sight,
I told my angel to hug you tight,
now to make sure you are allright,
I asked the wind to blow you my sweet good night wish”
Some things she wrote because I had requested her and she wanted to do this. I asked why and she says it makes her happy. A child still!!!
“Is raat ki chandni me khud ko unke saath dekha,
Taro ki chadar tale khud ko unki baaho me jhumte dekha,
Aaisa laga ki is jahaan ki saari khushiyan mere daman me aa gayi,
par palke uthi to ehsas hua ki main ek haseen khwab me chali thi aur phir hakikat me laut ke aa gayi”
The above one started well, bt she lost direction and just wrote it because she wanted to complete it. That shows why the end got messier.
Now one more -
“Aapke palke jhuki to aasma me andhera ho gaya,
palke uthi to savera ho gaya,
aap to khud me is khadar kho gaye ho ki,
yeh bhi bhul gaye ki aapke ek jhalak se kitno ki zindagi chalti hai”
This one was quite good.
I was feeling ki its been a long time that my dear princess came up with some lines from her heart. And finally my bad mood gave her a chance to come up with some lines to soothe my heart. I am posting it over here -
“Aaj tanhai me bahut rone ka ji karta hai,
Raat ke andhere me kho jaane to ji chahta hai,
par phir woh log yaad aaye jinke chehre pe muskaan ki wajah main hun,
to apne aasu ko pi gayiaur unke liye muskurane lagi”
She wrote it for me. What else do I need in my life other than such care expressed in as many words.
And she came up with another one to cheer me up -
“In tanha raaho pe chalte hue,
aapki yaad ne hume ek muskurahat de di,
par phir aapke chehre ki shikan ne usko gayab kar diya,
Hum to bas ab yahi dua karte hai hi humari muskurahat hume jaldi se lauta de”
Well, these days the feelings for her are very strong. Probably due to the stress at the office. I feel I want to live with her. I know it may not be practical to even think of that. But this stress at office is leading me to imagine a lot of things. And to get over it, I resort to my time tested techniques. 
. It turns the focus away from my princess and on to junk. I have even told her about this. How can I lay bare my soul to her? I havent understood. Would I do this with everyone?? I do not know.
I wonder what is that I am going through.
