Hmmmmm, where do I start? The trip to Bangalore? Or how I feel after that? I think both are related. One cant separate one from the other.
I was so apprehensive about going to meet her. I didnt know in the first place if it was right and how I would be spending time with her. That was the first question. The second that was running through my mind was how are we going to spend 2 days, when even one day was kind of tough to think of… But, time flies by when you have someone as sweet as that person by your side… The 2 days flew by like 2 hours and before I could realise it, it was time to leave bangalore… I felt bad, but happy that I have cemented my friendship with that person.
I dont know if she really enjoyed the time with me, but I had a very happy time with her. There was not much activity, but the very presence of her was enough. It was a fun time to be with her. I didnt expect anything from her, so it made all the more easy to relate to her. This was the first time in my life that I talked so freely to a girl and spent time with her without a single thought of getting into a relationship with that person other than being a good friend.
The second day had its set of surprises. She bought me dresses, which left a bad taste in me. But, it was her way of showing she cares…But, if she wanted to do it because I had spent so much time to meet her, then I would definitely be disappointed. I told her about my disappointment, but she said she wanted to buy me a kurta from long time and took this opportunity. Knowing her, I believe this. For, who can doubt such a pure heart.
And the most embarrassing part of the whole trip was she took it as a treat for me. And did all the spending. This was the first time in my life that I was being taken care by a woman less than my age and directing me in doing things… I allowed it, as it was more out of affection than anything else. I cared for her and she responded. Thats cemented our friendship. I dont know if I can have this relationship with any other girl, but one thing that I have learnt is that it is possible to be friendly with a girl without getting into a relationship. and the closeness can be amazing. Its not the physical closeness that I say here, but that you feel in your heart.
2 or 3 times during the trip, I felt a strong attraction to the girl, but i knew my limits. And I knew the relation we shared. I would have asked her something silly, but Thank God it didnt happen. I hope I keep my mouth tied for some time about this girl and concentrate on work. Help us share this relation and these feelings and these little nuances that make life what it is. Help us, Oh Lord, to be like such good friends all through our life. Even if I dont stay in touch with that person, I am sure that she would be one person I would talk a lot to with my better half. May be, I will name my daughter after her to remember such a sweet person. Only time can answer such questions.
But, we were brought together by destiny to learn from each other. Help us learn and show the way forward!! Just like her name, she brings music into others life. I have never been the same after knowing her. I hope I give her some semblance of balance in her life. I just cant lose the trust she has kept in me. Trust me and your trust will never be broken, let my heart lay aside, but the trust will never be broken.
