There has been some progress in work. I really wonder how morons can be sent onsite. There has been no effort of whatsoever to streamline things. No effort to understand if thing suggested are possible or will have any related issues. That sucker just is a mouthpiece to the the other guys there.
Now, this person who writes sher has come up with another one. She also had her certification exams which she has cleared with outstanding marks. She has scored 90%. Amazing person who can be a very good student. Probably needs to be more creative at work. Not sure why she limits herself.
I am noting her sher below -
“barish ke boonde mere saath naach rahi hai,
hawa bhi mere sang gaa rahi hai,
geeli mitti mere sang mahak rahi hai,
khula aasma bhi mere sang chal raha,
is khushi ke mausam me sab mere saath hai par
sirf aapki kami hai……”
She is kind of definitely doing some soul searching. I hope she lives a very good life.
Today has relatively been a calm day. But I guess its the calm before the storm. I am not sure how it will turn out. But my heart is relaxed and my mind is agitated. Never before did i have an issue like this. Only God can show me the way out.
Today was completely fun in the evening after coming home. I was messaging this person and reached out to her friend and both of us pulled this girl’s leg for quite sometime. She must have been really pissed off that her sms was burning my mobile. Just kidding!!! Finally, she calmed down and was back to normal.
I felt like I was there in that place with them. Well, mind is really a wonderful tool that you can use to achieve a lot of things!!! I wonder when will I put it to the right use it has been given to me.
The person has come up with some beautiful sher’s yet again. I am not really sure of the complete word by word meaning, but could understand the feeling she presented in it. Here goes -
“Aaj man kuch betab sa ho raha hai,
Dil ke jazbaat juba se zahir nahi kar pa rahi,
Aaj khuli hawa me bhi kuch ghutan si mehsus ho rahi hai,
Shayad kisi apne ki kami mehsus ho rahi hai”
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“Man me aaj kuch alag karne chah hai,
In badalo ke sang nachne ki chah hai,
koyal ke sang gane ki chah hai,
Dur gagan me udne ki chah hai,
Duniya ke in sab bandan tod kar khud ke liye jeene ki chah hai”
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“Kuch pane ke khawab hai dil me par raho se anjaan hu main,
Aaj apne jeene ki wajah talashne chali to khud ko hi talash na paayi main,
Aaj ehsas hua ki duniya ki daud me main khud ko hi kahi bhul aayi hu main”
Its amazing how we encounter morons in our work. I really wonder if these people have the basic common sense required to function in the world properly. These people spoil everyone’s life to lead a useful life. Atleast, thats what they think about it.
I called this person yesterday and had a few words. Actually, since we both were excited not much was communicated. She is trying to take the responsibility of balancing my life. I dont normally like people doing this to me, but this girl has a way with me. I can never win an argument with her except when she is undecided about what to do.
Its the trust that she has sown in me that makes me appreciate her so much. I should never ever break it in life. Only God can help me do that. I am unnecessarily getting stressed out. Please God, help me get a workable solution to this issue and we would be well on our way to do this work in a good way. Still a long way to go in that.
I dont want to say much about this person because what I have learnt from my previous experience is that I tend to extrapolate these kind of relations and end up breaking the relation as such. I shouldnt do it this time. She has been a good person and I would like to be the same with her. Its amazing how life teaches you things in the hard way so that you never forget. I really wonder why this life and why we live here in such a mechanical way!!
I was wondering yesterday why I blabbered about what I believed in to that person. I dont say it to anyone unless they are my close friends. But, it came out at that moment. And she said its ok to have such faith. Most of my friends have questioned or cautioned. And here is one person who understands that it is quite ok to be like that. Nice to have discussions with such a person.
Today was Suresh wife’s Sreemantham. It went well. I like the way Suresh cares for his wife. Really love the interest he shows in what is being done for his wife. Both are lucky to have each other.
Actually, with girls I feel I should take permission before I call them. I am not sure what they would think otherwise. Its just something I feel. I might not be right, but I wonder why I do it.
The body is tired because of today’s travel in the hot sun. Its amazingly hot in Chennai. Must have been 39-40 today I guess. Its drained me of my energy completely. I am feeling to goto temple as they have a Bhajan at home. I wonder why I dont like attending Bhajans at home or at samithi here. Some mental block that has developed. I wonder when will I get rid of these feelings. God help me!!
I wonder if Destiny brings two persons together (not necessarily marriage) to learn something important in life. I have been introduced to this person, whom I wont name, and we have so much in common in what has happened in life. She communicates her heart out to me and i respect that. I have vowed to keep the trust and I will till my life’s end.
Women all over india have taught me one thing – What it is to bear sufferings and yet bring joy to others lives? I might need to learn from them all my life. I spend hours chatting with this person via sms. We communicate whatever we feel at heart through this. But I am not sure if I can call her up and talk. For the only times we talked to each other during our previous project was to get technical doubts clarified and sometimes over lunch.
I wonder how amazing life is and what is it really trying to teach us. Below is a sher by her again – especially when I hurt her with my idiotic words.
“Riston ki is dor ko humne kitne pyar se sanjona chaha,
par ae dost tujhe humara pyaar bhi gawara na hua;
Aur tune is dor ko banne se pehle hi tod diya. “
Loosely translated to -
“With full love I was trying to build the friendship,
but my dear friend couldnt bear that
and broke it even before I could start”
When will I ever learn to make my heart soft to others feelings. Please teach me Lord. I really wonder again!!
The girl is really talented. She came up with a sher again. It goes like this -
“Ae dil yeh kaise ajeeb kasmakash me hai tu,
Yeh kis mukam ki talash main hai tu,
janta hai ki teri chah ko woh anjam nahi mil sakta,
phir bhi bekhauf un raho pe kyon chala ja raha hai tu”
She came up with this is during a boring session she had. Good that she engaged her mind. Atleast IT brings out the creativity someway!!!
It was an amazing experience today with the person. Each one of us left our place on a walk assuming the other person was accompanying. I enjoyed it even though it was challenging to talk via chat all time. Not sure if my partner would bring in such feelings in me.
Today was one day I had serious discussion about my emotions with that girl. I mean not about any personally love, but about why I am like this at heart. I could openly talk to her and she listened and suggested some things. I just was not able to do what she had suggested. Its because this feelings are deeply ingrained and it would take a big learning to change it.
Wonder what – Another Sher from that person:
“Rat kat thi nahi, din guzarta nahi,
kambhahakhat dil tujhe yaad karte thakta nahi,
dur ho kar bhi tu mujh se dur nahi hai,
par ab yeh judai ka gham mere dil ko raas nahi hai”
Loosely translated to -
“Nights dont pass, The days are elongated,
This idiotic heart doesnt get tired thinking of you,
You are far away but never far from me,
but the pain of this separation cannot be borne by my heart”
She has this amazing ability to switch to different topics and do excellent work in them. This is one such thing that she wrote when her friend & her friend’s boy friend got separated after a fight. Beautiful thought there!!
Well, I started off wrongly. I wanted to say that today I learnt that without practice I wont be able to keep myself diversified. I should work on that.
I am getting stressed these days too much. We have a piece of work that might require SeeBeyond work and it is really out of my scope. I mean I do not know the nitty gritty of the technology and it was bogging me down. I kept wondering if I would be able to it and it put so much pressure on me. Finally, I talked to Preethamand he sorted out the problem that if it is not in my area we shall get someone else to work on it. Dont unnecessarily bother about it now. That was a reall goo piece of advice as it made me bring back my focus on to work.
And I have been interacting with my colleague in my previous team for 2 weeks now through sms and we share an amazing thought similarity. I really wonder if I should have talked to her earlier in the project. She is such a simple soul and trusts people – just like the other girl but this person is more open minded and frank in her thoughts. She understands her limitations and her constraints and still a little girl in her thoughts. Its wonderful talking to her.
Here is another one of her Sher -
“Duniya ki is bheed me hamesha khud ko tanha paya,
tumhari yaad main jab rona chaha to aanko me ek bhi aasu na paya”
Loosely translated -
“In this crowded world, I have always found myself alone,
When I wanted to cry in your remembrance, didn’t get even a single tear in my eye”
